future is in ur hand

2009-05-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

it's hardly possible to take a break now,

to relax,

to chill,

to do what you really want to do.

time is tying you up.

time is stressing you up.

you gonna face the fact that time is really running out.

like r e a l l y.

its barely less than 6 months to go.

can you feel the fear?

-random-ner-

2009-05-02T00:06:00.000-07:00

a tree without its leaves, is it still called a tree?

a car without engine, is it still a car?

a happy girl without a smile, is she still happy?

a relationship without love, is it still a relationship?

something that popped into my mind.

anyways, friday was kinda family day for me.

was out the entire day.

which means, no study. :(

well, went lunch at crystal jade at taka with my family and relatives.

its been long since i had dined there.

night was aston. the food there was like awesome. :)

went to marina square.

wanted to see the cameras i had been intending to buy.

unfortunately, closed. sad or sad.

went to suntec's harvey norman to try some dslr.

decided to get nikon D60 rather than those mini slr.

the pictures are well taken than those mini slr.

quality were also far better.

hope can get it next week. just simply cant wait. :(

had physics tuition today. like finally?

the place was kinda small.

hope it really helps.

byeeeee. :)

-random-ner-

2009-04-25T22:29:00.000-07:00

life is just like a roller coaster ride.

it has its up, and it has its down.

you never know when its up nor down.

and you never know, when is the fright coming.

riding on a roller coaster, gives you excitment and fright.

those feelings that you can never get.

life is exactly the same.

sometimes, your life is just down.

while sometimes your life is just up.

its so unpredictable.

every roller coaster track you had been,

are all differently built and designed.

just like life again.

everyone's life is different.

their track;route are all different.

you may be lucky to get all smooth sailing roller coaster rides.

but, how many lucky ones out there had taken it?

i doubt there's anyone.

life, does not differ much.

no one's life are so perfect, smooth.

there's sure up and downs.

and, someday, sometime, it will stop.

just like the roller coaster you are riding,

it will stop in the end.

no more fright, no more downs, no more up.

but, there's one thing you got from the ride.

you enjoyed fully. you gained expriences through the ride.

indeed, everything will end one day.

if there's a beginning, there will always be an end.

and indeed, life is just like a roller coaster ride.

hurry get well soon!

-random-ner-

2009-04-19T17:22:00.000-07:00

she was really glad things got better.

yesterday was the ever worst day ever.

:(

she still loves you. :)

-random-ner-

2009-04-17T21:11:00.000-07:00

the girl sitting on the swing is smiling.
the girl getting back her extreme good results is smiling.
your friend smiled happily when you said hi to her/him.
the girl joking happily is smiling widely.
the girl is smiling sweetly.
the girl is smiling happily.
is that her real smile?
OR,
is that her fake smile?
is she wearing a mask or is she not?
keeping a smile on your face is difficult.
trying hard to smile when you are feeling down, is indeed hard.
we faked a smile, so as not to let anyone worry.
we faked a smile, so as not to let anyone know.
we faked a smile, because we want to let others know, we are fine.
smile; is a rather important emotion to change your expression.
smile; is indeed an inexpensive way to change your look.
smile; allows other people smile with you too.
you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
or maybe,
because of your smile, people feel happier.
because you are smiling.
fake a smile?
or smile the real smile?
its hard at times indeed.

-random-ner-

2009-04-10T14:42:00.000-07:00

-random-ner-

2009-04-03T22:15:00.000-07:00

i guessed everyone is tired.

who never ever get tired?

tired of everything.

tired of doing what they should do.

tired of seeing countless of failures.

tired of picking up their feet once again.

tired of seeing the same old thing happening again and again.

tired of apologising.

tired of giving in again repeatedly.

tired of thinking for yesterday, today, tomorrow.

tired of working our mind every second.

tired of simply everything.

everyone complain they are tired.

what is exactly tired?

no one knows.

putting lots of efforts, getting back what you dont wished to,

and your the other brain is telling you,

you arent working as hard as you should.

and your the other part of brain is telling you,

i am tired. really tired.

and your the other part of brain is telling you,

you sure you are tired? you are getting sucky results.

its time to work HARD.

much harder than you ever can think of.

its time to really mug and mug and mug.

if not you are gonna just stay stagnant here.

tired.

i am really tired of thinking,

thinking of many many endless stuffs.

ranging from here to there, to here and to THERE.

sighs.

maybe its time to let go something?

-random-ner-

2009-03-29T21:37:00.000-07:00

have you ever ran for a bus.

and when you managed to reach the entrance,

the door was closed,

just because its too late?

have you ever been given an opportunity,

and you missed it, just because its too late?

we people usually like to wait,

and wait,

till something is gone,

till someone told you, 'its too late',

then we will start to wake up and treasure the things around us.

we always complain life is unfair,

why we are considered late when its just one minute late.

why people come and go, etc.

life is unfair. no one says its ever fair.

when things happen,

there's always an echo at your ear,

echoing to you these 3 words, 'its too late'.

when everything is just too late,

we blamed,

we asked why,

we panicked,

we regret.

but, why is it till its all too late,

then we start to feel all these,

and not treasure/cherish in the first place?

this theory can only be understood, when you fully experienced it.

dont ever wait till its too late, then you start everything.

because, its too late.

-random-ner

2009-03-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

look at the word 'believe'.

what does it exactly means?

people tend to say,

when you believe in it, you will sure achieve it.

how true is that?

its always easier said than done.

after countless of failures,

do you still believe in success?

we usually tell ourselves,

just believe in it, and no worries.

but things are not always the way you think, thought, expected.

and if you look in another perspective,

the word 'believe' actually means trust too.

have you ever believe in someone fully?

did you ever stop believing your closest/best friends due to some misunderstandings?

and maybe due to the not believing in your friends,

you may lose a friend.

the word 'believe',

how important is that in our lives?

-random-ner-

2009-03-13T22:50:00.000-07:00

indeed, everything is changing so fast.

why is everything changing?

and when there's a problem existing,

people usually kept silent.

yeaps, silent is the word.

silent;silence.

keeping silent disallows one to know where the problem lies.

no one knows, except you.

silence lets the problem kept in tight and it wont solve anything.

it only makes matter worse.

people usually run and hide.

how long can one run?

how long can one hide?

we usually tend to run away from problems.

we chose not to think about it.

when things are changing, we chose not to bother.

just because we know we will get hurt.

the word 'changed',

its so hard to be said or expressed.

why do things change?

and why do somethings not change?

it just depends how strong you can maintain.

and as the saying goes, it takes two hands to clap.

not all things depend on solely oneself.

its never the same anymore.

-random-ner-

2009-03-13T22:33:00.000-07:00

today marks the last day of the school term ONE.

yes, i capitalised the word 'one'.

its just term one.

there're three more to go. and i know it will pass very fast.

since young, i have always yearn for holidays.

as for now, i no longer yearn anymore.

basically its because now,

during holidays, we have to study for the exams after holidays.

one paper is down. 4 more to go. boo!

gp is a scary subject.

if you fail, you have to meet the principal.

anyways, its over. hopefully i can pass. i emphasise on the word,

h o p e f u l l y. :(

if you were to ask me to rank the most fear subject,

physics will obviously be the subject.

i just dont understand how to do physics.

thinking that just knowing formulas, you can solve all problems,

but that is absolutely not applicable for such a noob physic student like me.

how sad is that. sighs.

and next, is the most dread subject.

guess what?

history.

i dread the subject the most.

its totally uninteresting to me.

and i still dont understand why we have to learn history.

luckily, its the first day and first exam.
holiday will be very packed with studies.

hence, now you know why,

holidays are not the thing i yearned and want now.

sad life.

anyways, all the best to all!

-random-ner-

2009-03-07T12:51:00.000-08:00

why promise when the promise you made are meant to be broken?

why wish, ponder, think and hope when its all fated?

why dream when you know your dreams are all shattered?

why remember when everyone had already forgotten?

why still linger on it when everyone had already let go?

why still care when you know its worthless?

why still worry when you know its useless?

why hurt yourself when you know its hurtful?

why force yourself to do something you wish you arent doing?

why act when you know its so tiring?

why?

the list goes on.

why?

its really time to work hard.

got to wake up from the dream i had always been.

but how?

really hope it didnt change at all.

-random-ner-

2009-02-28T00:33:00.000-08:00

sometimes, a hectic life,

deserves a break.

everyone is busy fulfilling their commitments,

doing their work,

burying their heads towards their work.

however, they often forgot that they need a break.

B R E A K?

does this word come into your dictionary?

sometimes, we wish to have a break,

but time disallows us.

the steps are tiring, heavy, stressful.

and sometimes,

we really just need a break.

__________________________________________

having to let go something that you wished you dont.

having to drift away from something you wished you dont.

having to get hurt by something you wished you dont.

having to bother, think of something you wished you dont.

having to accept the fact that things are changing, that you wished it didnt.

this feelings,

sucks or not sucks?

it sucks.

i dont wanna fight no more.

i am tired.

wished things arent changing.

-random-ner-

2009-02-22T23:31:00.000-08:00

the rope;knot is losing its secure.

the rope is drifting.

insecurity.

speechless.

sighs.

expect the unexpected.

-random-ner-

2009-02-21T00:29:00.000-08:00

Complicated

life as it is, complicated.

complicated versus simplicity.

would you rather want your life to be complicated or simple?

complicated; more happenings, more fun.

simple; less troubles, however boring.

why certain things are seen as simple, but yet is not?

a question to ponder.

why people can bring it up easily,

but when it comes to letting it go,

its always that hard, difficult and hurting?

people usually say,

if you can bring it up, you can let it go.

but how easy is that to say,

and how easy is it to do it?

its obviously very difficult to do it.

complicated life,

simple yet complex questions.
common tests are coming in like 5 weeks time.

and i had prepared none.

its seriously a no play play situation.

these tests are to tell you where you stand.

sighs. sighs. sighs.

if only, if only, if only...

-random-ner-

2009-02-15T19:35:00.000-08:00

The Future is not a Dream

the road seems like a dream path,

with no lights, no nothing.

it just seems so dark with no signs.

no leading way, no directions.

no idea where to head, no idea where am i heading.

its time to wake up from the dream path.

its time to decide where to head to.

its time to fix the direction.

its time to shine the light.

its time to brighten up the dark road;path.

its time to lead the path.

its time to be determine.

its time to stop dreaming.

because,

the future is not a dream.

but, can i?

doubtful.

words that cant be expressed...

sighs.

-random-ner-

2009-02-15T19:20:00.000-08:00

Amazing;interesting trains.

have you ever seen this type of trains?

its from japan and meant for kids.

the interior designs are oh my wonder gosh.

its well furnished and well designed.

it brings a sense of luxury..

there's even a strawberry train with a kitchen inside.
its just too amazing.
its worthwhile to hop onto a train like this.
both trains even contained hundreds of toys inside to cater to the kids.
interesting isnt it?
its only in japan.

take a look at the interiors.

2009-02-08T12:09:00.000-08:00

when out of the whole picture,

what you see its only the small little portion.

when you are only given one minute,

when you are only given one wish,

which portion of the picture would you like to see?

and when out of the whole picture,

only one portion is perfect...

she just wishes she can have more time in a day.

she wishes whatever she wished come true.

she really misses you a lot. :(

-random-ner-

2009-02-01T10:50:00.000-08:00

The Game is Over.

had two days of chingay cip on friday and yesterday.

was a great experience i must say.

never had this experience before in my 17 years of life.

it was darn fun.

but, fun moments always have to stop.

perhaps, this is to tell us, the game is over.

we got to be serious now.

had all review tests.

hist was really oh my gosh.

naming out all those people; its just too a m a z i n g.

its like rather blurry to me.

chemistry was alright, but, still, need to buck up.

organic and more organic.

luckily, we are dealing with the last organic topic.

lessons are going darn fast.

you can't even bear to miss one lesson now. or maybe to me?

how i wish, we are still j1s.

at least there aren't so much stress.

j1s will be coming in tml.

guess the school will be crowded again,

with many different uniforms, faces.

well, its another week to go.

so, long for now! (:

running circles in my head...

-random-ner-

2009-01-31T12:05:00.000-08:00

she felt disappointed.

utterly disappointed.

it is so disappointing.

wished she was not feeling this.

wished she could take back what she heard.

wished she could take it as nothing had happened.

wished she was not feeling hurtful.

everything is changing.

changing very slowly.

do you know?

i doubt so.

thanks for it.

nice one.

indeed a great answer.

what are close friends for when you need them and yet they arent there?

sighs.

-random-ner-

2009-01-23T23:31:00.000-08:00

Let the memories live again.

will memories be like a music disc?

playing the music whenever you feel like.

playing back the memories whenever you feel like.

if only, it can do so.

we came across many unfamiliar faces,

turned into friends/close friends,

created many memories,

and one day, we have to bid goodbye, going separate ways.

how sad is that?

and looking back at it,

we wished we could actually let the memories live again,

play the memories one more time.

however, things are just fixed.

time will only pass one time.

it will never ever go back.

what we got for ourselves are just m e m o r i e s.

wonderful, beautiful, unforgettable memories.

realising things that we wished we didnt...

_______________________________________

another hectic week is down.

long weekend is coming like very very soon.

cny is just around the corner. like 2 more days?

and i dont feel any festive mood.

probably its just too early this year.

all H2s tests are down.

what left is just history.

reading history to me is just like oh my wonder gosh.

i seriously have no idea how to make myself feel interested in it.

maybe suddenly i will have it?

hahaha. which is impossible.

anyways,

happy chinese new year to all. (:

-random-ner-

2009-01-16T23:02:00.000-08:00

school had started.

wont be updating so often.

days had been much more busier and hectic.

the time table is full of tutorials.

topics are taught very quickly.

just one glance, its taught.

tests are coming up next week.

no idea if i will do well.

hopefully.

just hope; i could only say.

i need to s t u d y.

i need to change.

i need to focus.

i need to concentrate.

i need to stop playing.

i need to C H A N G E.

right?

right.

-random-ner-

2009-01-08T22:16:00.000-08:00

Define the meaning...define the meaning of relaxed.

define the meaning of free-ed.

define the meaning of fun.

define the meaning of happiness.

define the meaning of everything.

i guessed it's hard to define the meanings now.

day by day, we grew older.

much older perhaps. turning 18 this year aint fun.

maybe it is. people will tend to say, you can go clubbing.

but looking at another point of view,

you are soon going to decide everything on your own.

you can't do childish things as much as you were young back in those days.

as you are growing older,

have you ever been as relax, as free, as joyful, as compared to those days when you were only pri or secondary?

maybe you did. but its not as much as anymore.

your workload gets heavier,

your stress is up to the max.

you have to decide your own future route.

where is the fun?

beats me.

but, with your friends around,

fun is everything. :)

a few more days to school reopen.

i am so so dreading it.

with those review tests welcoming us,

who would want to go back?

but i know, i know.

its a MUST.

that's what we students, have to face it. :)

at least i know i exist...

-random-ner-

2009-01-04T00:37:00.000-08:00

A brand new year!

another year had gone; a new year begun.
what will the new year be like?
as interesting, memorable, fascinating as last year?
as fruitful, prosperous as last year?
everything is undetermined.
everything has to depend.
this year will be a tough and tiring one i guessed,
with the As at the end of the year,
with the many mocks and tests to determine whether are you certified to take As.
but other than this,
there will be definitely some fun moments made.
wells, lets hope this year will be full of colours,
just like the fireworks above. (:

-random-ner-

2008-12-29T00:32:00.000-08:00

Buying a new shoe?

Selling BRAND NEW EVERLAST cream coloured shoe,

with black shoe lace.

its Size 6.

Initial price was $49.90.

BUT,

we are only going to sell at $45.

If you are interested,

Please contact Amantha Koh at

devil_of_the_devils@hotmail.com,

or you can leave a tag at my blog,

and we will get back to you very soon. :)

THANKS.

P/S: the shoe was just bought,

so we ensured its brand new.

2008-12-28T00:49:00.000-08:00

Random

when you need a friend, who you wish will be there?

close friend, or normal friend?

when you need a friend, but your friend is busy,

what will you do? how will you feel?

and when your friend is free,

and when you had already found another friend to talk out to,

and when you have no more mood to say it again...

seeing your friend actually dont need you,

seeing actually without you, everthing is still the same.

seeing actually you make no difference.

seeing actually you could no longer hold onto it,

seeing actually you aint strong anymore,

seeing you actually dropped a tear,

and seeing you actually have nothing..

nothing much left to say.

maybe that's the best of me.

maybe i just needed that trust.

maybe...

-random-ner-

2008-12-25T21:29:00.000-08:00

for once, her smile is real.

for once, she felt so blessed.

for once, her smile, is real for the moment.

just at that moment,

everything is real.

blessed.

and,

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. =D

-random-ner-

2008-12-22T22:27:00.000-08:00

When

when other people are running, while you are walking.

when other people are ahead of you,
yet you are still lacking behind.

when other people are ahead of you,
and the world left only you.

when the lights on the path you are walking shuts off suddenly.

when you are lying on the bed, thinking of dying.

when you are alone, thinking why is it so.

when you look down the building,
thinking if you just end your life like this,
how many regrets will you have?

when you look up to the sky,
and what you see are the gloomy dark clouds.

when you needed help,
but yet people just ignored and reject you.

when you want something so badly,
that you cant sleep at night.

when you feel so hurtful,
that you wish to let it go,
but you cant.

when the road you are walking, are all dark...

when all these happen,
what are you gonna feel, do?

-random-ner-

2008-12-21T22:30:00.000-08:00

Blurred

imagine your front is blurred,

imagine your sight is a blurred image.

imagine your road are all blurred,

that you cant even see clearly,

that you tried wiping off, shining it to make it not blur,

that you wish there is a shine of light guiding you.

have you ever walk with hopes,

and that it all turned into a blurred situation, image?

and that you have no idea why?

have you ever wish you know everything.

why it happened?

why it occurred?

why is it like this?

but its all blurred, left hidden?

sometimes, the image is blurred,

the smile you had in the picture may be fake,

may be blurred,

that you cant figure out whether its real or fake.

everything is b l u r r e d.

-random-ner-

2008-12-21T22:16:00.000-08:00

back from chalet on wednesday.

chalet was quite fine.

didnt get to sleep for 2 nights.

only barely a few hours of sleep.

day two was quite fun with those activities planned, telematch and water bombs,

followed by bbq.

ate a lot of hot dogsss.

but was hungry after sometime. :X

wanted to see the sunrise, but the weather was too cold,

hence, headed back to the chalet.

and third day came like an airplane flying,

there we go, headed home.

3 days passed superbly fast.

just a blink, its gone.

today marks the last cip we would be doing for this year.

those cip drove our sleep madly.

waking up at 4.30am to go for cip is mad.

walked 10km today.

it was quite okay. better than those walking 50km/100km.

fun experience too.

christmas is around the corner,

looking forward to it?

maybe? :)

-random-ner-

2008-12-11T12:28:00.000-08:00

sometimes, leaving silently may be a better choice?

sometimes, keeping everything in your heart,

not saying it out, may be a better choice?

sometimes, acting as if you know nothing,

may be a better choice?

sometimes, acting numb may be a better choice?

sometimes, holding back your tears may be a better choice?

sometimes, faking a smile may be a better choice?

because, you wish the person have the happiness.

because, you wish nothing change.

because you are afraid that things may change,

and yes, sometimes it does.

because, what you did is to earn the smile.

because, its hard to open the mouth to say.

because, you are afraid of saying it out.

because, you dont wish to hurt other people,

but who knows,

you are actually hurting you, yourself, and only you.

crying, tearing silently, where nobody knows.

its hard not to look back,

look back at the footsteps you had left,

look back at the fun moments you had,

look back at the memories you had created.

but all these are a mark now.

happiness; is it that important?

maybe it is.

sometimes, leaving, letting it go,

may be a better choice...

for the happiness it is.

-random-ner-

2008-12-04T23:02:00.000-08:00

saw a phrase in a magazine.

it reads:

"I've often been the one who took care of the other person.

But now I've learnt to take charge! I want to be appreciated too. "

have you often take care of a person?

have you often think of others before yourself?

have you often put others' needs before yours?

have you often help others even those things are those you never did before?

have you often help others just to earn the smile of theirs?

one sometimes tends to act strong,

but inside it, he/she is weak.

one sometimes tends to act strong in front of others,

one sometimes may be the happy, cheerful, crazy person in front of everyone,

but, look into her/his eyes,

you will see tears.

you will see the sadness, troubles, worries piling up inside the heart,

all left unsaid.

you may ask, why not say it all out?

one possible reason/answer;

he/she dont wish their friends to be sad,

he/she thinks that no one will listen.

who dont wish to be appreciated?

but sometimes, if you dont say,

the person wont know.

wont know whether is she/he appreciated,

whether is she/he important.

maybe those are my feelings. o.o

somtimes, somethings are always left unsaid.

-random-ner-

2008-11-29T16:16:00.000-08:00

time; seems to be passing verrryyy slowly.

time; pass superbly fast when you wish it to go slowler.

time; pass superbly slooww when you wish it to go faster.

it always go against to what you want.

time; it wont go fast or slow for you.

time; wont stop for you.

but when you are all alone, bored, staring at the time,

going tick tock tick tock....

it seems so slow.

hais. :(

hurry hurry hurry zoommmm to next week. o.o

a life without friends is just like a life without sun.

booooooo!

randomner is bored ttmmmmMMM.

-random-ner-

2008-11-25T22:51:00.000-08:00

Photos photos PHOTOS.

out with crystal on monday to botanic garden.
it was fun fun FUN. hahaha.
took a lot of pictures in the garden.
she was kind and nice to lend me her camera. :)
thanksssss a lot.
after the botanic garden,
we then headed to plaza singapura for a drink and walked around.
thennn, went to taka to buy her book?
and bussed homeeeee.
thanks for the accompany for the bus ride. =D
would like to head to botanic garden again! :))
below are some of the pictures taken that day.

crystal crystal.. dont emo. haha.

she is trying real hard to bring the flower alive again.

hahaha.

boring days ahead. :(((

saddddddddd.

-random-ner-

2008-11-23T22:54:00.000-08:00

sometimes,

you invested this much,

but you realised,

you dont actually get back the same 'much'.

weird phrasing?

but it's quite true.

think about it,

you treat someone well,

will that someone treat you back equally well?

worth to ponder. :)

sometimes, letting it go before it hurts is a better choice,

but we people, usually let it go when we already get hurt.

why?

-random-ner-

2008-11-17T22:14:00.000-08:00

have you ever felt so bored, that you have no one to look to?

have you ever felt so bored that you looked through your contact list,
calling every single one you could call,
and that when you called,
they told you they were busy,
and that they have no time to 'entertain' you?

have you ever felt so bored that you look at the computer like every single day,
and that you have completely no idea what to do to it?

have you ever felt so bored that you lied on the bed,
thinking how lonely and bored you are?
and that your tears just come out itself?

have you ever felt so bored that you have no one to talk to?

have you ever felt so bored that you switched on your tv,
whereby you have not watch tv for ages,
and that now you were so bored that you watch,
trying to entertain yourself,
and let yourself stop thinking how bored you actually are?

have you ever felt so bored that you purposely wake up late in the morning,
so that you dont have to think what to do,
to let you feel not bored?

have you ever felt so bored that you completely have nothing to do?

have you ever felt so bored for like everyday?
getting sick and tired of your everyday life?

have you ever felt so bored that every night,
you wait for people to online,
so that you can chat with them,
so that you dont feel bored anymore?

have you ever felt so bored that you constantly look at the clock,
wishing it would turn faster,
and turn to the night time?
because that is the time you are going to hit the sack,
and finally rest your mind,
and finally dont give a damn shit whether you are bored?
and that finally you had passed another boring day of yours?

have you ever felt so bored that how you wish you aint bored,
and that you were damn busy?

have you ever felt so bored that you wish there were friends beside you,
filling up your boredom,
but there arent?

hais.

i am breathing with difficulty now. :(

-random-ner-

2008-11-14T22:16:00.000-08:00

i want to take nice pictures,

i want to capture those happiness down,

i want to capture those moments down,

i want to take many many pictures,

people, sceneries, objects and everythinggg.

only if i owe a camera for myself.

1-way, 2-says, 3-words, 4- youuuu.

-random-ner-

2008-11-13T21:51:00.000-08:00

Dreams, Hopes, Wishes...

have you ever heard of the wishes story?

something like, there is one person who is granted 3 wishes etc?

and in the end, the person turned into _______ due to his greediness?

we dream, we wish, we hope.

we dreamt that our dreams come true.

we wished our wishes come true.

we hoped our hopes come true.

but do all dreams, wishes, hopes come true?

how does it feels when your dreams were shattered?

how does it feels when your wishes dont come true?

how does it feels when your hopes are always meant to be hopeless?

and on the opposite.

how does it feels when your dreams are full of hopes?

how does if feels when your wishes you made all come true?

how does it feels when your hopes are nearing you?

i bet you will be jumping over the moon.

but, certain things are always against you.

and how you wish, your dreams, wishes, hopes are just like a kite,

flying up high,

with those winds blowing it up,

keeping it high up,

and never drops.

tomorrow will be a better day.

everyone said so.

will tomorrow really be a better day?

everyone hopes, wishes.

but sometimes, its always, always the same.

why?

beats me.

sometimes it just hurts...

-random-ner-

2008-11-09T00:19:00.000-08:00

Have you ever...

have you ever have something that you always wished to have,
and losing it just in one day?
have you ever feel so miserable, so sad, so tense,
and that you wish you can say out everything,
but you cant?
have you ever have a best-est/closest friend,
and lose it just because of one small little quarrel?
have you ever wish when you look up to the sky,
there is someone there, telling you what to do?
have you ever wish that your life is planned properly?
full of directions for you,
telling you which directions to take?
have you ever wish your friends will always be with you?
have you ever wish your life is always so peaceful, lively, entertaining, happy?
have you ever wish you could have what you want?
have you ever wish the happy moments you have will stay forever?
have you ever...
there are just too much have you ever.
maybe wishing is too much.
we cant have all the things we want, to suit us, to...
this is just LIFE.
face it, commit to it, work towards it.
people walk in, and walk out of our life.
you may ask why then we still make friends,
and one day, we have to say goodbye.
why?

-random-ner-

2008-11-08T22:58:00.000-08:00

My Day...

met up with amantha at around 12pm plus at lot one,

bussed over to my grandmother house for some baking session.

what i can say is fun fun fun. :)

before heading to my grandmother's house,

went to coronation plaza to buy some baking stuffs,

and get my photos printed.

started baking after our lunch.

as you can see from the picture up there,

yes, we baked mostly chocolate chip cookies.

after baking, wanted to cycle around.

butttt, one of my bicycles' tyre was deflated.

so yeah, cant cycle.

sooo, went to the playground and played swings etc.

then, my cousin came and we played together.

around 6 plus, we then busseddddd home.

it was a fun time spent.

maybe i should stop being so philosophical. o.o

-random-ner-

2008-11-05T22:43:00.000-08:00

whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

i want to ask many many whys.

but who can i ask?

many things left unsaid.

hais.

:((((

-random-ner-

2008-11-04T00:39:00.000-08:00

When...

think about the times,

when there is only one swing,

when there is only you,

when you are feeling so lonely,

when you are feeling bored,

that you never ever had experienced this b o r e d o m before,

and never ever want to.

when you wish there are more than one swing around you,

when you wish you aint feeling bored,

coz you know feeling bored is so not good.

when you wish when you are bored,

there are people out there to entertain you,

but your friends are so so so busy,

and completely have no time to entertain you.

when you wish you aint alone,

coz you hate the lonliness.

when you wish when you are feeling lonely,

your friends around you are by your side.

when you wish while you are having fun,

people are having fun with you too.

BUT,

sometimes, there is only one swing, one you.

walking through that,

its so terrible, so hard.

and that, you have to find your own entertainment,

to let you feel not bored.

entertain?

you ask a friend to entertain you?

you are treating them as a clown?

entertaining might not be the meaning of clown.

chatting is sufficient sometimes,

and this is a form of entertainment.

letting one knows, one is not alone,

at least, someone out there is aware of your boredom, aware of your lonliness.

how good is that?

BUT,

people tend to say, ' learn to be independent'

maybe i should.

but, its so so damn difficult. :(

-random-ner-

2008-11-01T23:23:00.000-07:00

Memories

everyone has memories.
browsing through those old photo albums,

memories flow back.

we walked through this life,

and we stored memories in our mind.

The past is never dead; it is not even past,

because the past is the memories we kept.

why we live?

we may live for memories,

to let us remember what we did, had done.

we may have lost something,

but never for memories.

we may have lost a friend,

but we will never forget the times we spent together.

that is memories.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,

the things you are,

the things you never want to lose.

We do not remember days;

we remember moments.

memories give people mix feelings.

it let people feel sad, happy and whatever you can think of.

memories, is it that important?

my days are boringggg. :(

-random-ner-

2008-10-28T22:10:00.000-07:00

Promise

have you ever made a promise?

alright, that question is simply retard and dumb.

or should i ask in another manner,

have you ever made a promise and broke it?

i am much confident to say yes.

many make promises, but broke it.

why?

you asked, and what you get back are all those usual reasons, craps.

well, sometimes broken promises are unintentional.

but, if you think you cant fulfil this promise,

why promise in the first place?

friends forever; a promise to your friend.

but, anything could happen.

this promise you made, will somehow or rather be broken.

due to what? maybe quarrels? who knows.

why some friends are meant to be close friends?

why some friends quarreled, and never be good friends anymore?

why some friends are only meant to be hi-bye friends?

why some friends, we will never ever talk to?

time is the greatest test for everything.

time allows things to change,

but if you can maintain it,

you realised you had already beaten the time.

found this picture, which is very true. ;)

well, at least i try to keep that little promise.

hmmm, my post is talking about friends every now and then.

reading my friend's blog,

its also talking about friends. hahas.

maybe, friends is very important in our life. :)

that's for now!

only if everyday can be like today... (:

-random-ner-

2008-10-26T12:52:00.000-07:00

i must not, should not, cannot, would not, lie anymore.

i promise

-random-ner-

2008-10-23T22:46:00.000-07:00

how does it feels when you treat your friends very good,

and yet, they treat you like ______.

you-know-what.

how does it feels when your friends said something which hurts you,

but you kept in your heart,

dont wish to say it out, because you think its better not to say?

how does it feels when your friends change?

how does it feels when you know your friends are not appreciative at all?

how does it feels when you know, you are nothing in your friends,

knowing they actually do not need you,

not caring about your presence?

how does it feels when you wish its your close friend who will notice you,

care you,

concern you,

when you need it most,

but its not?

and instead its a normal friend who noticed it?

how does it feels when you realised your friends dont need you?

how does it feels when you wish to say out all the unhappiness, but you tolerated it?

how does it feels when your friends abandon you aside, ignore you?

it ALL sucks a BIG time.

it really sucks.

hais.

whenever you rejected a friend asking for your help,

whom he/she had helped you before,

think how he/she helped you last time.

if he/she can do it. why cant you?

-random-ner-

2008-10-23T22:03:00.000-07:00

you reap what you sow.

interesting and true sentence.

hmmm, got back my promo results yesterday.

its not really good but was satisfied with what i have got.

the most surprising was my history.

initially, before entering the room, or should i say,

after finishing the exam paper,

i told my friends, i am so gonna fail that paper.

and oh my gosh, to my surprise, i passed.

yeah, surprisingly.

i thought i did wrongly for one question and the other question,

i did not really write a lot in it. so ya.

the most wasted part was my chem.

half a mark more to get a B.

look how close is it.

but teachers wont be going through the papers, so no half marks. :(

got a B for phy. haha. first time. thanks to my phy teacher. =D

however, maths was rather quite disappointing.

did many practices for it but in the end only get a grade D.

but well, at least its a pass.

hmm, finally this post is not a philosophical post. haha.

schools ending real soon.

but many activities with my class are coming up i guess?

hope so. haha.

sometimes when you lost something,

you will never ever get back.

so treasure it where you can.

-random-ner-

2008-10-20T19:56:00.000-07:00

Simple things

simple things like this; a touchy message from a friend,

whom you dont expect she will write to you,

can make you shed a tear without realising it.

To zhong jiayan:

Hey dude.You are a crazy but nice friend to get along with.When i am no longer around,don't be afraid of being alone.u can always give me a call and look for me when u encounter times of solitude and loneliness:)I am going to miss the times when u never failed to make fun of me.Don't play too much computer hor.Next year is extremely important for ZHONG JIA YAN!!

thanks so much, though you told me dont thank you.

it really touches me a lot.

i guessed you are the one in the many friends i had who wrote this kind of thing to me.

glad to meet you. :)

because of the smiles...

-random-ner-

2008-10-16T22:46:00.000-07:00

Life as a jigsaw puzzle

have you ever notice that life is actually like a jigsaw puzzle?

no idea of what your finished puzzle will look like,

is just like no idea of what your future will be like.

one piece by one piece..

one step by one step towards your finished puzzle,

towards your future.

if one piece of puzzle is put wrongly, your whole puzzle wont be beautiful.

just same as life; our future.

just one wrong step, will your future still be as beautiful as what you wish?

still as smooth sailing as what you hope?

it may be a yes, it may be a no.

that's life.

if only your life can be as peaceful as the sea tide, calming and nice.

if only your mind is full of dreams to be accomplished,

instead of worries polluting your mind.

if only whatever you dreamed, wished, hoped for, comes true.

if only your life is so perfect, with no mistakes, no scars, no nothing,

if only you could turn back, but you know the road is so straight,

that you cant, even U-turn back.

if only you could turn back time,

go back to the memories you want,

go back to the fun moments you wish,

everything will be so perfect, so sweet.

but, unfortunately, sadly, we cant.

that's why its call life.

life is full of up and downs,

full of excitment, where you have no idea what's going to happen next.

just like jigsaw puzzle.

need a hard time to find the correct puzzle,

put it on,

beautiful piece of puzzle awaits you.

and who knows, how tough is it looking for just one...

just one, it may affects everything...

how long will the smile last?

i wonder...

-random-ner-

2008-10-11T16:36:00.000-07:00

Why do things change?

remember the times when you and your friends were joking happily?

like you just know them?

remember the times when you were once a kid, learning how to walk?

and now that you had grown up to become a teenager?

remember the times when you know a person, but yet, he/she changed?

everything changes.

given time, you can see everything is changing.

just like friends, you know them. you joked, talked everything.

but as time progresses, things changes.

less jokes, less happy times.

you knew them better, and realised things you wished you didnt.

the days are not gonna be the same as the days you once know them.

it had changed.

and how you really wish, nothing changes.

and how you really wish the happy moments were still there.

and how you really really wish it did not change.

sometimes, people won't vent out their unhappiness,

it's because they don't wish to spoil everything.

do you really understand?

i really wished. :(

-random-ner-

2008-10-08T21:44:00.000-07:00

Trust

that's right, trust is the key in everything.

will you lay your trust in someone and let her/him to lead your way without worrying?

trust occurs in many things.

trust is one aspect that one may look for in you.

is trust really that important, many would asked.

as for me, i think it is.

without trust, will you even believe your friend or someone?

yes, they may be someone whom you just known,

but, without giving them your trust, how would you know they cant be trusted?

someone may lied, but that does not mean, whatever is said is untrue.

without trust, would you even have close friend?

to have close friend, you have to first give in your trust.

if you do not even trust a close friend of yours, do you really regard her/him as a close friend?

something to ponder and think about.

it's really hurtful and disappointing when your friend dont trust you,

worse still, when you told them its true,

they then gave you a kinda expression of not really trusting you.

that's really sad.

but well, one is given a choice whether to trust. ;)

quotes that i found on the net, which is quite true.

“The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it's the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friend.”

“It takes a lot of understanding, time, and trust to gain a close friendship with someone. As I approach a time of my life of complete uncertainty, my friends are my most precious asset.”

"The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.”

Those were the days...

can the days be ever the same?

-random-ner-

2008-10-05T01:11:00.000-07:00

Random Quiz

just did a personality quiz; which pokemon are you.
and i'm togetic. this explains everything or perhaps a little of me. ;)

hmm, quite true in it.
give it a try. :)

this is the link: http://www.dragonflycave.com/newpay.aspx

-random-ner-

2008-10-03T22:19:00.000-07:00

can you sense how true is people's 'nevermind'?

people usually said nevermind,

but how true is it?

do they really mind it, or do they really dont mind it.

some people say nevermind, just not to stir things up more.

some people dont show true faces, but in their heart they take it seriously.

so who are you? hmm.

___________________________________________________

i never had wanted to say my things out,

maybe i dont have the habit.

if faking a smile can make people feel happy,

why not?

thats me.

rather sad huh. but hmm hais.

'kidding', this word is what i always say.

but when am i really kidding? do you know?

no, you dont.

my face dont shows. but if you really understand me, you will know.

sad? no lahs, kidding.

anything to say? sure a not? YA. nothing.

thats me. o.o

a happy person, who shows the smile to everyone everytime,

usually have a lot of worries left unsaid,

and the most sad thing is,

when you said you are sad,

no one believe.

when you are alone, you can even think of silly stuffs, like die.

i know that's crazy. but it just came into my mind.

have you ever wonder, if you are dying,

how many of your friends, true friends who will shed their tear for you truthfully?

just fingers, you can count. :)

friends are easy to find; true friends are hard to find.

when i said believe me, believe me please.

-random-ner-

2008-09-29T22:48:00.000-07:00

Little things...

little things can stir up your emotions/feelings/atmosphere.
little things can make the people around you angry,
little things can make the people around you sad,
little things can make the people around you feel irriated,
little things can make the people around you feel frustrated,
little things can spoilt the happy atmosphere around you,
little things can make the people around you moodswings,
little things can make the people around you .........
all these can happen on big things too.
but, little things can make the people around you happy.
the little things you did, even your unintentional dumb-est acts,
can steal one's sadness away and make one smile.
this, dont need a big thing.
just a small, little thing is sufficient to make the people around you happy. :)
the smile you had on your face, can make people feel happy too. ><

random-ner is just being random. :P

-random-ner-

2008-09-26T00:01:00.000-07:00

Backdated Post

as you can see the heading, this post is gonna be a backdated post,

supposed to be posted during the exams period,

but had no time as studying was in the progress.

went out to library to study as usual for every sunday with amantha;study buddy.

library, kobayashi, bussed down to kap, and go home.

same routine had kept us going for a few weeks. :)

took some pictures while studying.

study study study!

hmmmm....

she's studying huh. ><

study until you need to quest your thirst.

that you need to buy more drink, from big to small. o.O

and lastly,

ipod; music which accompanied me when studying.

music is the life. :)

alright, uploaded almost all pictures i took.

managed to have the time to change a new blogskin today. haha.

okayy, update soon. ;)

-random-ner-

2008-09-25T23:17:00.000-07:00

Behind the scars if life, can be like the picture above, relax and no worries,

how many people in the world will be happy with their lives?

i think there will be lots.

who likes to have worries, troubles etc?

none. i think.

many worries, troubles are left unsaid.

partly is due to who can one say their troubles to?

to a friend whom you regard as good friend?

yes, they lend a listening ear to you,

but do they solve your problems?

no.

problems are created by ourselves,

and requires you to solve yourself.

___________________________________________-

exams are sort of over.

promote or what?

i am not sure.

and dont wish to think of it.

the more i think, my heart beats faster every moment. :X

somethings i just dont wish to say,

but keeping inside one's heart is equally painful and terrible.

many many many problems wish to say,

but saying = no use. :(

if given a chance, what will you do?

for me, i wish to turn back time.

have no idea either. o.o

penny of thoughts which is beyond the scars, left unsaid.

saw a 'phrase' from a picture found in the net.

quite meaningful i guess?

' old friends pass away, new friends appear,

it is just like the days,

an old day passes, a new day arrives.

The important thing is to make it meaningful.

A meaningful friend - or a meaningful day.

Or even a meaningful life! '

i dont know what to do, seriously. hais.

maybe time, will tell me. :(

-random-ner-

2008-09-21T21:54:00.000-07:00

RANDOMS

certain things aint simple as you think.

walking home alone, lets you emo at times.

thinking of your troubles till,

you can even forget to stop at the traffic light and look out for cars.

yes, indeed, certain things aint simple as what many people think.

faking a smile, somtimes feels so terrible.

who knows when are you faking,

no one, no one knows.

even your closest friend.

looking at your blog, makes me feel very guilty and sad.

i told you this many many times.

and you would always tell me,

its okay. promos first.

but, there is always this barrier that i cant overcome it.

i cant possibly bear to see you doing all the things.

you did a lot a lot of things for me.

little things you did, really touched me a lot.

many people said,

opposite attracts, but we arent.

we have a lot of similarities that time allows us to realise it.

but, as times goes on,

i realised i cant afford the time for you.

i told you, however, you said its okay once again.

you said, i understood.

i appreciated it a lot.

but this cant go on like this.

i tried to repay back to you,

but somethings just cant.

i hope i can. :(

you are a very nice, understanding, caring person i ever known.

thanks for being there when i needed.

never regret knowing you.

hoping the security you gave me, never fades at all.

forcing a smile, good or bad?

do you ever know, when am i faking smile?

really, faking a smile can be bad at times.

throwing all your troubles behind your mind dont bring any goods.

to earn a smile for yourself, is to earn a smile from others first.

giving time to your friends or whoever, is the greatest gift you can give to people,

coz, once you give your time,
you can never get it back.

to amantha:

thanks for being a nice, good friend.

appreciated the things you done for me last night.

no one did stuffs like this for me before. :)

friends forever. :D

-random-ner-

2008-08-31T23:45:00.000-07:00

this shoe bag is oh my gosh freaking nice to me.

hahaha. okay. maybe only to me.

alright, the shoe bag is not mine. it belongs to amantha.

thanks to her for lending me her shoe bag.

want that shoe bag very very muchie. =P

alright, teachers' day celebration on fri.

went back to wsss to meet sec sch friends.

had lunch with them at bpp.

chatted, talked, gossip and everything do bring back memories.

however, was rather tired that day.

as i had a slept over at julia tan's house with amantha and susan on thurs.

quite a fun one i should said. :)

with one hour of sleep, i survived the day in having tution, dinner. =D

but, when it reached night time, i can even dozed off while using the com.

went to study with amantha today, as usual.

did what i wanted to do today. :)

sorry to make you cry. :(

tomorrow onwards, will be a full mugging session.

siansssssss.

i promised the long post will be back after my promos.

till then.

i dont know what to do.. :(

-random-ner-

2008-08-22T23:11:00.000-07:00

this post is so gonna be different, as i am going to keep it short and sweet.
haha. actually not, its just to save time.
yup, i cant waste anymore time.
i am only left with 20 plus days to the PROMOs.
and, i am ONLY going to start my revision now.
everyone is like saying, oh my gosh, we only left ____ days to promos.
hearing this, its just gonna bring you stress.
oh wells, maybe that's just life. JC life. o.o
things had been good this week. not much happenings. :)
oh yahs, not to mention, computers are really distracting to me.
i just cant settle down to study with the com infront of me.
whenever i reach home, i will definitely switch on the com.
therefore, i need to go out to study............
and every sunday :)
saturday too. :))

had dinner with amantha today after tuition.
had a wonderful talk hahaha.

currently, studying differentiation.
but, again, distrated by the com. :X

i know this post has no linkage.
hahaha. maybe its time for me to neglect this blog for just a moment?
NO TIME! :(
if only time would slow down its pace....

get well soon!

-random-ner-

2008-08-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

been very very busy for the past whole week and including this week.
just finally have the time to update my blog.
its hard to say every happenings from last week.
so i am just going to summarise it. :)

hmm, last week.
on friday, there was a national day celebration.
ended school quite early.
had gallary walk, song session.
was not quite high at first. but.... haha.
after that, class went for class outing.
they watched dark knight, while i went to orchard. :X
after that, around 4 plus, went to meet them and head over to beauty world to play pool.
played for 2 plus hours. then went to bukit timah food market centre to have dinner.
thennnnn, home sweet home. haha.

saturday, went for charlie chan tution.
then, went to my mother's side grandmother house for some gathering.
to admit, it was rather bored there. haha.
just had dinner and did nothing there.
basically its just stoning there, watched tv, listen to them talking.

sunday,
as usual, went to je early in the morning to study with amantha. (my study buddy)
hahaha. erm, then had lunch at kobayashi,
after lunch, bussed down to kap for studying again. ;)
our sunday routine. haha.
but, it was not that bad after all.
quite productive i must say.
and she really made a good study buddy. ;D

this whole week, was like busy preparing for the tests.
chem test, maths test, chi mock test.
ALL in one week.
but, its all over now. HAHA.
prepared a lot for chem.
buttttttt, due to _________________, my mcq answers mostly are wrong. boo! :(
nvm, shall not do it next time. haha.
maths test was quite alright.
have to thanks amantha. hahaha.
practiced quite a lot before the test.

tml is friday, the next day is sat, and the following of next day is sunday.
one week pass so fast.
before you know it, its already gone.
and counting down the weeks, the days are getting nearer to promos.
and i have not done any revision or full force mugging. HAHA.
i will, i promise myself i will mug HAHA. ;P
update when i am free again. :)

i felt safe with your presence around. :)

-random-ner-

2008-08-03T22:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary...

hmm, lets begin with the whole week's happenings.
monday,
ended school quite late as there is come cip talk thingy at 6.30pm.
went home at around 8 plus as i was stopped by my friend.
nothing really happened on monday,
just the usual lessons.

tuesday,
dismissed quite early that day.
gp remedial was canceled.
but, had some class thingy.
helped them to buy some art crafts thingy for the national day stuff.
stayed back to help a little.
enjoyed it.
after that, went to find lynne for night study.
joked, talked a lot. haha.
had a great time with her. :)

wednesday,
racial harmony day celebration. haha.
booth were set up in the concourse,
but my class did not go and view it.
we sat at the canteen and chatted. HAHA.
was quite a fun one though.
after that, had cca.
a rather short one.

thursday,
had a lot to talked about. as we had a mini class outing after class that day.
after school, went with amantha to find crystal to go back to wsss to get the yearbook.
rushed like mad.
did not take lrt for such a long time.
thanks to crystal heng. HAHA.
after that, must rush to the bustop to take bus to westmall to catch the 4.55pm show.
watched prom night.
nearly cant go in to the cinema. ;X
was a scary show for me.
yeah, i know i dont have the braveness.
well, thats me. ;)
after movie, went for a quick dinner at the food court.
chatted a little and headed back home.

friday,
as usual, went school, (like obviously)
then, charlie chan.
and, home sweet home.

saturday,
went for the pioneer heartbeat cip thingy in the morning at vivo.
did not do much in it. haha.
just kinda slack there?
but was quite glad to see some of my primary school friends there.
after that, went to subway for lunch with susan, caz and julia.
chatted there, as usual. haha.
then hurried back home as 5.45pm had to meet at cck for splat thingy.
the concert was not bad. haha.
did not really regret going. :)
that was the first time the clique 6 went out till so late. HAHA.

today,
woke up early in the morning, just to go lib to study with amantha.
had to admit that it was quite productive.
did quite a lot of stuff.
then, went to kobayashi to have lunch.
after that, took 66 down to kap for study again.
but did not study much there.
haha.
started talking and etc. :P
fun one. haha.

phy spa tml.
hope i dont screw up in it.

waiting....
for you to online. :P

-random-ner-

2008-07-27T15:50:00.000-07:00

One step determines everything?

on many occasions, we do not know whether our next step will result in good or bad.
just like the above picture, before putting down another step, did we ever think what is going to happen next after we had put down that feet?
in our everyday life, there are certain things which need us to consider and decide.
or perhaps we have to look into the word 'choice' .
we are each given as many choices as we have.
but, sometimes, its really difficult to make a choice.
taking an example, our jc life.
we had chosen this step. this step that we dont even know where it will lead to.
will we just stop there? or?
we have no idea. or maybe for me.
what we only can do now, is since we had let down this step,
we have to strive and work towards it.

other than practically just our studies,
there are many things that needs one step at a time.
and does one step determines everything?
sometimes it does.
just one step, you may do something wrong.
just one step, you may do something right.
who knows?

does one step really determines everything?
this is a hard and good question worth to ponder.
and what i only know is,
that step or the step is a very heavy one,
which requires much thoughts in it. :)

this is just a rather random post. =P
another new week is starting tml. boo!

promise me, you wait for me. (:

-random-ner-

2008-07-25T13:26:00.000-07:00

Whole week.

had a really really hectic and tiring week.
went back late on monday and tues, or should i said,
practically the whole week.
had ushering practice on monday and tuesday.
hence only went home at 8 plus.
quite a fun one though. HAHA.
walked home with lynne after the practice.
the whole journey back home was full of laughters.
with her around, there will be laughters without fail. ;)
had a real fun time with her.

stayed back on thursday for night study with her.
helped me in integration. haha.
smart girllllllll.
oh ya, whenever i eat with her, i just cant stop laughing.
meaning, i can hardly get a bite of my food.
its just hilarous watching her reactions and etc.
LOL.

went for charlie chan yesterday.
after tution, went to JE for dinner with amantha and weihao.
had kfc and we sat there for quite some time.
talked, gossiped blah blah blah.
HAHA.
enjoyed it.

today, went to school for the meet parents session.
whereby all parents have to meet their child's respective CTs.
have to work really hard for the promos.
just around 2 months left.
mugggggggggggggggg.

i dont know what to say,
but i can feel it............=X

-random-ner-

2008-07-19T22:21:00.000-07:00

Random

i guessed now i will only update my blog once a week.
life is getting more hectic.
with more works to do and complete.
school's ending late too for this week.
maths test and phy prac trial run are coming up on monday.
hope i will do well in it.

hmm, cant really remembered all the things i had done for this entire week. =X
monday
long school day. had school till 6pm.
played some volleyball during pe session.
nothing really happen on monday. ;)

tuesday
was dismissed at 1.30pm but had to stayed back for some reading club thingy and gp remedial.
after my reading club thingy, went to the hall to play captain's ball with some class peeps a while
then head off for gp remedial. went home with amantha and susan after that.
had some joke on the way too. HAHA.

wednesday
excursion to pulau tekong with 08S15 day.
yeah, this was the only day where all the peeps in my class went for an outing. haha.
basically, all odd number classes went for it.
had some photo takings on the bus. :)
went for some tours around the place.
now the beds are quite good and the canteen foods are like superb?
left at around 5 plus back to pjc.
then went to lot one for dinner with the usual people. HAHA.
we can actually form the clique 6. ;P

thursday
had A lvl listening compre.
was about to sleep during the listening compre.
but well, luckily all my answers are the same as my classmates.
after the listening compre, stayed back with the usual ppl again haha.
basically is for susan and weihao. as they had to stayed till 6pm for detention. (late for sch)
but well, it was it was quite fun after all.
as we played some games which created us a lot of laughters.

friday
nothing interesting happened.
LOL.

today
went for charlie chan tution as usual.
after tution, went with susan to cck gym for some work out. haha.
had real laughters with her along the way.
with her around, i cant eat nor do anything.
her face and actions can really make one laugh. HAHA.
just like me. HAHA.
many said i am joker. lol.
and now?
back home blogging, and preparing to memorise the phy prac thingy.

maybe i cant give you what you want.
hais.
sorry. :(

-random-ner-

2008-07-12T19:30:00.000-07:00

did not blog for long. haha.
alright, received quite a number of presents from friends.
on sunday ( my bd), went kap to study with crys.
then went off at around 5 plus as i had a celebration at home.
catered over. food was nice! haha.
monday, no school as its youth day.
went out at around 1 plus to JP for a movie treat from kede.
'dont mess with the ZOHAN' HAHAHA.
like this phrase much.
after watching, went to have some bite at mac.
then went home. haha.
thennnnnnnnn, on tues, have to return back to school.
no more 'holidays' :(
school return back to normal with lectures, tutorials.
hais. took back those results.
looked really sucky. although all pass except gp. :((
have to really buck up and mug real hard.
dont wish to retain. sighs.
okay, shall not rant on this again.
nothing really happened in this whole week.
oh ya. ytd after pw, almost the whole class stayed back and gossipped. HAHA.
talk and talk and gossip. fun. :)
after that, went for charlie chan tution with susan and amantha.
was late around 10mins. =X
after tution, initially wanted to go JE for a dinner with crys.
however, accompanied amantha to westmall to print her photos.
and due to my laziness of going over JE, i asked crys come over. HAHA.
had pastamania. it had been long since i entered that again. haha.
and after the dinner, went home. :)

some photos of the presents i received.

crystal's present for me.
the cupcakes were really delicious and nice.

present from amantha and susan. :)
gave me a big surprise. hahaha.
soooo, what is inside the blue box?

its FACE MASK. and a lot a lot of sweets.
they know why and i know why. hahaha.

saw crumpler bag? nah nah nah. its not real. hahaha.
its a card from amanthaaaaaa. she drew me a crumpler bag.
cool! hahaha. like it so much. although its not real crumpler. =D

susan's card. HAHA. it looked damn hmm, classy. HAHA.
her card can really make me laugh. HAHA. (inside the card)

present from yilin and zhiying.
a lot of things inside the bear HAHA.

presents received on tues.
erm, the black colour plastic bag is from joanne.
tee and a card inside the bag. :)

thanks for all the presents!
really treasured and appreciate it.
;)

♥ 08/07/08 :)

-random-ner-

2008-07-04T20:26:00.000-07:00

Random.

nothing really to blog today.
oral was kinda alright.
gave myself too much stress on it. hahaha.
was telling susan that i was very scared.
scared that the question asked will be difficult and i will get stuck.
but phew, luckily, it was not that tough.
the question was erm, did your teacher use music to teach in class or sth like that.
luckily, my chi teacher did that before. otherwise i had nothing to say. =D
it was rather a fast one.
faster than O lvl.
around 5 to 10mins and you are done.
next, went to dover to meet lynne. :))
first time going out with her though a short one.
went to far east to have lunch and walked around.
went back home quite early.
had fun on the bus. HAHA.
talked about friends thingy.
hmm, sometimes, i personally think that when you treat your friends too well or well,
your friends wont be treating you as well as you treat them.
maybe that is life?
but its very sad if you treat your friend good, and they are not.
life is always unfair.
anyway, its just some rants. :)

2 more days to go!!. :))

i finally met you.
hahaha.
yay!
you gave me the sense of security. :)

-random-ner-

2008-07-03T19:31:00.000-07:00

Mixed
alright, since i had talked about monday in my previous post,
i will start with tues then. :)

Tuesday:
let me think about it. guess nth much happened on that day.
stayed at home the whole day.
but around afternoon, amantha came over my house.
basically, just to choose her blogskins and slacked around.
then, we went to mac to have some bites around evening.
and the joke is, we walked to lot one, then saw the mac has no seats,
walked back to cck cc to have mac there.
but okay lahs. haha. can waste some time. really had nth to do after exams.
then acc her walked back to lot one. :))

Wednesday:
went back to school for oral preparation at 3pm.
before that, amantha came over my house again.
and this time, was to do her blogskin.
yes, she chose one. like finally? HAHA.
but not accomplished when we left.
done for her at night. lalalala.
a friend in need is a friend indeed. :D
after school, went to lot one mac to gossip/talked with amantha,susan, mingsoon and hongda.
then back homeeeeee. ><

Today:
went to sch at 8am for PW workshop and pw discussion followed behind.
then, after that, went to bpp to have lunch with class peeps.
this time, there were more ppl. haha.
maybe its coz of the chi oral later on.
my oral is tml. sad. :(
susan told me today's oral is quite easy.
the topic was also okay.
wish tml's will not be too difficult.
just hope to do well.

Just some pictures taken on monday at BK at holland V before ending off. :)

mingsoon holding the burger. hahaha.

Susan and I.
(dont tell me we look alike. =X)

yay, 3 more days. 3 more days! :)

you asked, but did not say anything.
is it good or bad?
i idk.

-random-ner-

2008-06-30T21:43:00.000-07:00

Horray! :D
exams are officially over. alright, to make it clearer, its only mid years.
still have a long way to go.
had physics paper today. which is also the last paper.
agreed that it was much easier than the first test paper.
but, asking whether will i do well, i cant give the answer. hahaha. why?
coz i doubt i will do well. :(
after the last paper, went out with some class peeps for lunch at bukit timah, followed by pool.
and lastly, went to holland village and have some talks. :)
quite a fun one though.
................................................
finally, bought my new mp3 on sat.
chose apple ipod nano.
met susan along the way at orchard.
hahaha. it was damn funny that time.
touched and zoomed. :))
but too bad, she saw me. :(

now that exams are over, results is what we people fears most. haha.
or maybe i should not mention this now.
4/7 mt oral. = fear, horror.
unsure of what to say, and whether i will do well in it.
and we have like one week 'holiday', have really nth to do during these days.
pure boredom. hahaha.
luckily some days i have to go out. ;)
now, i felt so relax, and not as tensed as the past few days.
no more exams worries. for the time being. :)

-random-ner-
you just never fail to make me not bored. :)

2008-06-27T23:34:00.000-07:00

no updates for long. haha.
why? due to the midyears.
studied till quite late for the entire week. mostly till midnight. :(
but i guess, its all worth it. :)
all are down, except phy.
phy is the realll killer. wonder will i do well in it on mon.
and yes, mon is the time i can really relax, and 'throw' the studies away from my head for a moment.
i was rather happy that i could show the macluarien series today for maths.
coz i was like practicing a lot ytd for the paper.
at first, i cant show. then i told myself, i MUST show. hahaha.
and yay! i managed to show. although, i dont really know how to do a few q.
chem... haha. hope to at least get a B? or a C.
went out today to boon lay lib to 'study' with susan and amantha.
talked a lot. :X but it was quite fun.
and that tootpid susan gave me a new name. and i warned you, better not say itttttttt.
its so unpleasant and embarrassing to be heard.
susan left earlier and had dinner with amanthaaaa.
hahaha. fun fun fun!
you crawl, ohhhhhhh... you just got stepped. hahaha.
i jumpedddddddddddddd. jumped hopped off. :D ;D
cant wait for mon to reach.

browsing through mp3/mp4.
thinking which to buy.
yeah, i am buying a new one. old one has some problems.
which to buy? what to buy? puzzled.

A lvl MT oral on 4/7.
dead or not dead? HAHA.
hope i will do well and perform well. :)

Lastly, happy 17th birthday SUSAN. :))

i hate lonely nights. just like today. :(
where are youuuuuuu.

-random-ner-

2008-06-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

hmmm, why am i blogging? o.o
hahaha. coz i dont feel like studying.
i had been reading hist notes for like the past few days. and i really dread it.
i dont even understand korea war. hais. sad sad sad.
guess i will be concentrating on cold war.
dont ask me why i dont like hist, i am still taking hist as my H1 sub.
i have NO choice. :(
alright, tues stayed at home alone and that is real bored.
wed went for charlie chan tution.
4 hours of tution that day. coz have make up session.
tml i am having the other one again. -redox.
today, went to school for a shorty one. then went to lot one to have lunch with amantha, susan and weihao.
after that, met up with crystal and together with amantha, went to kap to study.
tml is tution day again. and after that kap again... zzz.
i guess someday, kap will be boring for me. HAHA.
exams are getting nearer. and is NEARER.
afraid i wont do well for it.
hais. hope, wish......

had a nice chat with you although its a short one. haha.
viwawa again? HAHA. matchit- i am pro. =D

all i can do is just wait...
coz........

-random-ner-

2008-06-16T19:41:00.000-07:00

alright, photos uploaded. but just show some as there are hell lots.
photos taken by my bro. and when he took the photo, he need to position for veryyy longgg.

anyway, think the photos are quite nice. hahaha.

the pictures are all mixed up and i forgot where is which. so just show haha. (its more on sceneries)

the journey begins. :)

the formula one held in aus's pit stop.

what's that? hahaha. o.o

kangeroos.

staring at you.

caught it hopping off. :P

went here to see koalas.

can you see the koala?

going up to the ski resort at mount hotam

look how foggy it can be during winter time. you can barely see the oncoming road/distance.

snapped some cows along the way.

maple leaf. ;)

parliament house.

the 3 sisters thingy at blue mountain.

stayed in apartment which is about 77 storeys high. and my apartment lvl is 69.

woke up in the morning and saw the clouds outside the window. haha.

travelling on the harbour bridge in sdyney.

vineyards. no grapes at that season. so no grapes there. haha.

this pic looks great. its just like a wallpaper taken from the net.

i think this was took at one of the vineyards we visited.

the sdyney opera house and harbour bridge taken in the night.

look pretty cool. hahaha.

the harbour bridge.

this looks nice too.

sdyney opera house.

then. we took the new airbus A380 back to singapore. woots. :DD

the screen. it is bigger and much better.

.......................................................................

and i shall end with this very nice pic. its real. caught it by chance. :)

seldom get to see this in singapore.

of course there are more, but lazy to upload all. its too many. haha.

went to sch to study with amantha, susan today.

talked, read a little of history.

really had no idea how to study for hist. read, but the next moment, i will tend to forget some. o.o

will be going back to sch to study again tml.

and it will be hist againn. :(

why? i wish to ask why. hais.

as time goes by, i.......

wishing it to be possible. :(

-random-ner-

2008-06-14T19:25:00.000-07:00

Back.

back from my trip to aus.
pictures will be uploaded once it's in my com as all the pictures are with my bro.
okay, arrived at melbourne on 6th of june.
something rather embarrassing happened at the airport.
so shall not say it hahaha.
stayed in melbourne for around 2 days. went to phillip island to see the penguins going back to their home. rather interesting and nice to see it. haha.
then went to mount hotam (ski resort)
unfortunately, there was no snow, hence cant ski. :(
so stayed in the ski resort for 2 days too. slack around in the apartment.
next, drove to canberra. 6-7 hours ride. your butt can be rather tiring. ;P
when we reached there, the sky turned dark.
as it was winter time, the sun sets when it reaches 5pm.
many business people there. unlike melbourne.
stayed for one day there. and next morning, proceed to sydney.
sydney is a place where there were more people populated there.
streets were full with ppl.
went blue mountain to view the 3 sisters (rock)
the next day, went to hunter valley. not a hunting place.
but is a place where mostly all the vineyards are situated there.
tasted wines (but i did not) and bought some back too.
spotted some kangeroos along the way there.
did not manage to spot one with a joey inside. :(
saw koalas too during the trip
and even saw dead kangeroos on the roads along the whole trip. it was so disgusting. haha.
saw one with one of the ear gone.
reached singapore last night.
dont wish to leave aus, but its a must. :((
having a chance, i would like to go back again. haha.
will talk more when the photos are uploaded.
.......................................................

left about a week left, and still felt unprepared for the mid years.
no time left; everyone would say. hais.
have not even touched my history. and i have no idea how to start studying it.
used to memorise it, but now, looking at the lecture notes.. i really dont know how.
well, i still need to memorise. HAHA.
so now, what i have to do, is STUDY. zzzzzzz.

if only wishes will come true,
i wish that will come true now., really :(

2008-06-05T16:24:00.000-07:00

went nus for the phy enrichment camp on 2nd june.
okay, basically, i forgot that i am suppose to go on 1st june.
so, well, i gave it a miss as when joanne smsed me telling me why i wasn't there, it's too late to go.
went for the second day. did some experiments. but only one experiment made it interesting for me. o.o
the experiment is basically, erm, using liquid nitrogen to do the experiment.
like let's say, you put vegetable in the liquid, in a few sec, drop it on the floor, what you expect is just a glass breaking sound. the vege just break like this!
we then carried on playing with the eggs, etc. it's rather disgusting. but erm.. HAHA.
it's very fun for that experiment.
next, the last experiment is OT. (which they called that)
hmm, dont ask me what is that about, coz when we went in, we started playing with...

THIS. :D

now, this is not a modern specs nor whatsoever.

haha. it's a goggle meant for phy experiment to protect our eyes from the laser thingy.

alright, so the teabreak's food are superbly nice. hahaha. like esp the erm... :P

after the experiment, we had quiz among the schools which participated in this camp.

NJC clinched the first place, combined jcs second. and PJC! THIRD. hahaha.

we beat VJC, MJC and JJC. :DD

hmmm, leaving tonight to aus!!!

will be back on 13th june.

gonna miss out the class outing on 6june. :(

wish to go, but sadly, by that time, i am already in aus. hais. well, nvm.

hope they have fun! :)

update when i am back. :))

bye~~~

imy.

2008-06-01T23:55:00.000-07:00

nothing really happened within these days as it was simply home-ed days.
stayed at home doing what a student should do.
hais, and it's really very boring and dull.
doing sth which you dont really wish to do. :X
okay, on friday midnight... i was thinking ( simply coz i have nth to do)...
that i actually had not much time left for my revision for my midyears as i will be away for 8 days. and these 8 days are so precious to me. yes, once in a lifetime it is. hahaha.
coz i dont wish to fail my midyears. :(
as what my phy teacher said, if you fail your midyears, you have a lower chance in passing your promos. and that is really very sad.
so before i leave for my june holiday vacation, i have to treasure the time and study. boo! :(
okay, that is real not me. coz i dont like to study. (seriously) ><
well, at the same time, i will relax. hahaha.
just like today, went out with crys to study at KAP. (okay, i know it's still not so called relax but at least we chit chatted quite a lot as compared to staying at home to study.) :P
joel joined in later. haha. and he's such a lazy bum. =X
but, he really helped we both a lot in those questions we dont know. smart ass. zzz.
waking up to the next morning really dreads me.
dont wish to think about what to do the next morning and dont even wish to bother the pile of work waiting for me to accomplish.
but, no matter what, I still have to. coz, the reason is very simple. i am still a STUDENT.
but sometimes, being a student is good. with all the friends around you,
giving you the fun and laughers. haha. i think i am the one giving ppl laughers. :D hahaha.
okay, shall not rant further. hahaha.
hope i will do well in my midyears!

study study study :(
and how i wish you are the one.

-random-ner-

2008-05-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

guess this is gonna be a long post. :)

alright, it is now holidays!

but this whole week, most of days i am required to go back to school for extra lessons.

and mainly PW too.

on sunday, went to hui min's house to study with her and crystal too.

studied a bit on phy.

as usual, i explored her room. haha. i realised i like to explore people's room.

it's rather interesting too. so no offence. hahaha.

yep, joke a little at there. it was a long time ever since i saw hui min. haha.

after her mom went off to work, haha! huimin then called it 'my world'

if you want to know why, hmm, trying asking her haha. :D

she started taking my pic. o.O

and since she started it, i went along with her. hahaha.

table full of our studies materials.

What i am studying. :)

at her house; the picture she took without asking me. :P

as for this pic, took rather a long time to get this pic taken.

why? blame me hahaha. o.o

well, the one beside me is crystal. =D

i still think, i dont look good when i am taking pic with someone. :X

anyway, this huimin, insisted to not take pic with me.

she's gonna regret HAHA.

but one thing to comment about her, she is really a good friend.

i guess she's the only friend who will listen to my 'rubbish', but well, we are no longer in the same school. :(

worry not, i will still keep in contact with you HAHA.

on monday, mood was quite okay, till.....

alright, shall not say or rant anything here. :X

tuesday!

erm, went sch at 10am. had chem lecture followed by phy tutorial.

after that, went out with some s15 peeps to have lunch at plaza (subway).

after eating, we then discussed on where to go next, so....

we went to beauty world to play pool.

played a little. i realised i dont really like playing or cant really play pool much,

after some time, i will get bored and tired. haha.

after playing, home sweet home! :D

was rather a fun day out with them.

today

nth really interesting happen today, as there is no school today.

stayed at home. and basically, it was a boring day.

tried to study a little. :)

done my eom which is to be submitted tml.

yes going sch tml again, and i guess it's gonna be a long day as tml i will be having tution at 4.30.

hmm, sometimes i really wish to rather have school than holiday.

coz when you are at home, you will think what to study; what to do.

whereas in school, you know what to do. haha.

okay, that's about it.

update again when i am free.

off to edit my eom and stuff. :)

iguess,youdontdeserveittoo.

coz,youareyetanotherone. :X

-random-ner-

2008-05-23T18:51:00.000-07:00

Random

Tuesday:
on tuesday, after school, stayed back to wait for susan and some others to play badminton.
haha. it was fun though. we played with some teachers.
was really fun to play. went back around 5 plus. was exhausted actually. haha.

Wednesday:
sports day was on wed.
was rather hot on that day and hence, i took an opportunity to SUNTAN when the participants were all running. hahaha.
every minute outside is an opportunity to suntan for me. :X
i had wished to suntan for a very long time.
and on wed, byron(my house) was situated at the other side, well, we had been isolated there. hahaha. anyways, that day the sun was rather bright. suntanned the whole session.
went back home.. my hands and legs were red. :)
i think byron is still at the last place.. however, the contestants for byron were really not bad.
at least, they managed to clinch some first place in some of the events. not bad. :D
went home with LYNNE after that.
thanks girl hahaha. for accompanying me back home. :)

Today:
had gp exam today. 12 questions altogether.
was the first time having gp exam in jc.
well, i did q6. talking about marriage.
hais, hope to really pass it. as it will contribute 20 percent to my promos.
after gp exam, went out with amantha and some s15 peeps to lot one to have an early lunch.
then, went back to collect my graduation cert and year book.
it's very nice. the year book and all.
and thanks to susan for accompanying me to go back to my sch. :)
after that, went back to sch for that training. hais.

june holidays are here. yet i dont feel anything. for the very first time.
maybe coz we have to go back school, and we have to prepare for midyears.
or maybe as the environment changes. haha.
well, let us just enjoy this one month holiday then. :D

fun, laughter are what i need when i am bored :X

2008-05-17T14:41:00.000-07:00

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tired of the impossible quiz 1, try impossible quiz 2 then.

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2008-05-16T22:49:00.000-07:00

first... chem spa.
hais, as what i had thought, i will definitely screwed up in it.
why? i have no idea too. it's always like this. since sec 4?
my hands were shivering when i am pouring the solution into the measuring cylinder.
and.. spilled some sulphuric acid on the table :X
but, the actual answer for x is 7. however, sadly to say, i got 8. :(
gonna be deducted for accuracy marks.
but but.. i think i should at least be grateful, glad that out of the 4 tries i did, i managed to get the endpoint for just once. i knew that's bad. haha. but at least i got to show the teacher the endpoint colour. :)
i was really scared that i could not get the endpoint before entering the lab.
okay.. it's over. shall not dwell on it anymore!
anyway we wont get to know our results.

today:
after school, went to meet up with huiting and dine with joanne and her.
did not seen her for like quite a long time.
really happy to see her.
all the 'bickering' came back and haha, she 'scolded' me again.
and p/s sorry for dropping your key into the erm.. haha.
brought her into our sch and let her explore around :)

GP mid year exam is coming up real real soon.
next fri is it.
i doubt i will have any confidence in it despite reading all the notes given.
sometimes, the more you study, it's still useless. :X
haha.

holiday is coming real soon too.
one more week!
and holiday!!! hahahah.
but holiday ain't holiday. have to study. sad.

depressed, sad, stressed and..... :(

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2008-05-10T20:47:00.000-07:00

the days are passing very fast...
just one week or so more, it's GP exam.
just a few more weeks, it's june holiday.
and after the june holidays, mid year is coming up.
thinking about the midyear... i guess i am going to.......
looking at those tests i did in school, its like...
it's so demoralizing. studied but in the end did badly.
but well, what can i do? just have to work harder and strive on! :)

on friday, it was the very first time seeing mr lum getting furious.
scolding my classmates...
at times, i think it's really uncontrollable for one teacher not to voice out their unhappiness they had on the class peeps.

anyways, went charlin chan tution just now.
yes, i had decided to go.
coz, without tution i will seriously die in all the tests and even the midyears i guess?
the tution is quite good though.
and the teacher is friendly hahaha.
first time talking to him today.
but something rather curious, why when he talk, his eyes is always on .. dont know where. haha.

spa is getting nearer.
with hist essay test together.
and talking about history, i doubt i can even write much in the essays.
i read and read, but like some dont go into my head.
hais. :(

do miracles happen?

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2008-05-06T18:23:00.000-07:00

mid year exams schedule is out.
basically it's after the june holiday. :D
however, as for GP it's on 23rd may. :(
and i found out that actually my bd is such a 'long holi'...
4/7 i do not need to go school as it is marking day.., 5/7 is sat. 6/7 my bd and its also youth day! then that means 7/7 is a holiday and also my pri school friend bd haha.
so many days of rest. gooodddd. :P
its like real soon, very very soon. scared i wont pass. my english sucks like ***.
naffa test is officially over. hahaha. tml for pe, we girls can play free games!
and its like finally~~.
thinking to retest my incline pull up. o.o

days are getting busier and busier each day...
now with PW in group, it's even busier.
we have to meet up and discuss our project work. :(

and i am still thinking of whether to go for the chem tuition...
no tuition equals die. hahaha.

i think.. i will be away during in the june holi to AUS. :DD
i wanted to go there for very very longgg.. hahaha.
i will rmb to buy you one kangaroo if i am going. :)

sad but dont know why... o.o

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2008-05-02T22:04:00.000-07:00

finally... 2.4km run was over! :D
no much runnings anymore as what the teacher said.
next week will be the 5 items test. hope i can do the incline pull up. :X
what i meant is my leg wont slide off. haha.

from next week onwards.. i would be having ccas on wednesday and friday :(
as we would be having trainings from an ntu teacher.
and friday, i have to wait till 4pm for the training to start.
and it will only ends at 6pm. zzz.
shall not rant too much on it. hahaha.
...............................................

SPA exam is around the corner. 14 may.
and on 14 may, i will also be having history essay test. :(
and the problem is i cant even get the history thingy into my head.

i guessed i wont score well in SPA.
everytime i tried doing the report calculations, it's always wrong.
or mistakes in some parts.
hais. hope to really do well in the SPA. :)
and and.. today, during the chem prac, hais.. all because of my mouth...
i went to curse amantha saying she will overshot the thingy..
then in the end, i myself overshot it. :(
should not have curse her. :X
so, i was just lazy to redo the whole solution again, i went to borrow from susan! haha.
but, the titration seems to be wrong somehow or somewhere.
i did not get the end point we should get.
hope on 14th may, i can get the endpoint! hahaha.

lastly, a big big thank you to you for helping me to do the card~
heex. i sure will treat you to the island creamery. :))
choc is just a temporary. HAHA.
see how good am i. :P (hope you see this haha)

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2008-04-29T06:42:00.000-07:00

Random

sunday
went out in the morning around 11.30am? to JE library to study chem with susan, hong da and wilson. cleared much of my doubts i had for chemical bonding and atomic struture. :)
and seriously, without tution i can DIE. tution makes me understand better. and you may say i have a slow understanding person. coz yes, i am. :P
around 2 sth, we went to have our lunch at long john. we gave ourselves a break by going to the arcade and play basketball. it had been ages since i stepped into the arcade once again. we spent the whole money on just playing the basketball itself. o.o
it was quite fun. haha. but at the same time, our hands are very tired. kept throwing and throwing. after that, we headed back to the library and studied for around 2 more hours before we went home. :)

monday
chemistry test! :(
after doing the test, i felt rather .... wasting the time to study so much and in the end, i realised i forgot to study the practical. and ... the first question was on practical calculations. T.T
and, it was the first time we did not have any PE today. :)
no running and all. hahaha.

Today
studied maths for tml's maths test. hopefully i know how to do. haha.
nothing to comment or say about today...
today is just another short day in school. haha.

tml is 2.4km run. naffa test. sianz
must run run run! :(

a little thought on this:
the more we study, the more we forget, the more we forget, the more.......
then why study? ;)

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2008-04-26T14:30:00.000-07:00

had a hectic week...
going home at 6pm on mon, 6pm on tues, 4pm on wed, 6pm on thurs and 5pm on fri.
and by the time i get home... basically not much things were done.
tests coming up... and i had 2 tests accomplished on monday. - phy and chi
phy... was.. haha. my expectation.
next monday, i will be having chem and GP test. suppose to have maths test.
but.. well teacher forgot to return us our tutorial 6 ws.
so.. postponed to wed. :)
PI was taken back for admenments as the teachers think that we can improve on it and score better. some students' PI was checked. i rather wish mine was checked..
at least i know where i stand for my PI.
..........................
still thinking whether to go for the GP tution..
but considering the time... 6:15 to 8:15
which then means i will reach home at 9 plus as the location is at orchard. :(
but the fees wise.. its quite cheap. 160 for 4 lessons. hmmm.

not only subjects tests are coming up..
even naffa test is also coming up.. and its real soon. 2nd may i think.
difficulties facing are the incline pull up.. legs kept sliding off which hinders me from doing more than i can. :P and also the sit and reach.
i just cant reach above 30cm . :X
i cant stretch. hahaha.

next monday.. due to the chem test... dismissed at 7.30pm. :((
and so now, going off to kickstart my revision for chem test. --> sians T.T

this post was rather random.
just to keep my blog updated. ;)

ificould, iwould _______.
turnbacktime.
turnbacktothetimewhen...
/beenlonelysincetheday.....

2008-04-19T14:05:00.000-07:00

Such a small word indeed

everyday we are making new friends...
or whenever you go to a new place, a new environment..
you get to know new friends.
and what's so interesting about it is that,
your new friends might be the friend of yours.
like for example, after getting psle results, you have to say goodbye to your primary school friends perhaps and you may think you would not meet them anymore.
but, when i entered pjc, i saw some familiar faces who are my pri school friends. :)
and moreover, my friends can be my pri school friends too.
its so co-incidence. or should i say....?
haha. its really quite interesting.
and you may go 'ehh, that is my friend too.' heex. ;P
that is what happen to me. haha.
so... maybe you may meet your secondary school friends in university?
hahaha. hence, its such a small world indeed. ;)
..........................
if you are given a choice whether or not to make friends..
what will be your choice?
giving it a thought, as for me... i think sometimes not making friends is better.
as you can say, living in this world, you cant afford to not make any friends.
you need friends to help you out.. or whatever.
but thinking it, making friends sometimes do add on to your bothers, problems.
and...the worst thing is that you made a friend, and in the end you have to say goodbye to them.
that is really heartbreaking. hahaha.
who would want to say goodbye to a friend after having a friendship for so many years?
i personally hate that. :( haha.
but well, sometimes you have to. you cant stay on there forever.
time wont wait for you. you got to move on for the better.
so lets wish for the better. :)

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2008-04-18T18:26:00.000-07:00

Random

loneliness of the long distance

walking on the road yourself...

memories do really flow back and your mind is full of thoughts...

while walking home today, i passed by cck sec.

the band sounds.. the lion dance sounds... the command for marching.. and all.

it reminds me of the secondary school life.

when we were having extra lessons after school...

usually there would be some sounds coming from the band people. :X

not only this...

it reminds me of the some moments in sec 4 i should said.

and also year 2007.

well, let the past be memories and lets just move on.

dont ponder on the past, but think about the future. :)

......................................

today.. school is kinda of...

haha. but no matter what.. there would always be full of laughter.

by the usual jokers i should said. :X

and maybe i am one too? haha.

and and.. my bag was hit quite a number of times by xxx xxx. :(

i kinda of regret my cca now. :(

feel like joining taekwondo now.

it looks fun and it also have some benefits like getting an opportunity to learn and its free. :P

but well, i doubt we can change cca now.

study study study :((

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2008-04-14T19:55:00.000-07:00

yay~ e-learning day tml.

no school! :D

but more things to do i guess?

today's pe was quite of relaxing.

and it was the first time. coz it was raining so we can only have our pe in the hall.

did shuttle run and some trainings and stuff.

then off we go, back home. ;)

show 2 very artistic pictures drawn by xxxxx.

its really very nice and the shadings too.

you can draw as better as them nia.

first pic. how is it? hahaha. i think its very nice.

this is also nice. the shadings and all. :P

okay no more. haha.

you know who you are. :X

no offence for showing it. :XX

haha

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2008-04-12T16:10:00.000-07:00

3 -S- words to say....
Shag, Stress, Sad...

have not been blogging for almost one week.
had been rather busy for this week with those tutorials and PW.
PW is seriously giving me a big headache.
till now, i had redo my PW 3 times.
changed from technology to machinery and now to cars.
i had sent my PI to my teacher. hopefully this time it would be better.
haha. and because of the PW... i had really no time to do my own things...
aside those tutorials.
and the lecturers are teaching so fast. one week and one chap is done.
i am in need of maths, phy and GP tution. haha.
chem is also needed but in the mean time, it is still manageable. ;)
someone asked me how do i find JC life till now...
i dont know what to reply, but just to say still okay.
i actually wanted to say its stressing. it truthfully is. :(
i had even thought of poly during that time.
but i had chosen the JC route. but i guess i wont regret?
as i am still unsure what i want to do in my careers. =)
.......................
yesterday after school, went to plaza with amantha, susan, mingsoon, weihao and hong da.
actually its meant to be studying with amantha and susan, which was amantha's idea. o.o
but the guys joined in and wanted to eat and there we go.. following them. haha.
after they had finished eating, we then went to popular as amantha wanted to buy her 'colouring' materials. hahaha.
and one thing i noticed about her... her world must be colourful and not white and black.
if you get to see her notes somehow or rather... you will see how colourful i meant. :P
then, we went to mac to study a little while the guys went off.
joke around and basically tease amantha with susan hahaha.
sometimes its so fun in teasing and disturbing others. :D
overall, its quite a happy one though. full of laughters.
........................
next tuesday - e learning day.
no school for all PJ students. haha.
but why cant it be monday??
monday i end at 6pm while on tuesday i end school at 1.30pm. T.T

now, have to complete the tutorials again~
try to update when i am free. :P

i want to say everything out in my heart,
but it is useless :((
and i just cant pronounce the 'W' properly.
which leads me in not daring to to say PW out loud.
you know.. and you would always laugh. :X

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2008-04-05T12:23:00.000-07:00

08S15

yesterday, half-day for all PJ-ians.

coz of the good results achieved by our seniors.

hence, we had a class outing after school.

however, not the whole class turned up, only 10 out of 25. pathetic yeah? haha..

but, its still a fun one. full of laughters, full of jokers. hahaha.

was supposed to go cp, then changed to imm, then changed to town....

THEN after deciding for so long, we went lot one and had pizza hut. o.o

hahahaha. quite near and should be quite convenient for all to go home? haha.

okay, here goes the pictures...

i was forced to take pictures which i dont like by my acm - amathaaaaaa (who always scold me ben dan and dumb). =x / :P

amanthaaaaaa

'group' photo for those who went.

taken in toilet. o.o i was forced to take. :(

cassandra, amantha, me and zi ying.

this was taken by amantha without asking me...

lastly, the whole 08S15 class photo.

okay that's all. :)

now have to accomplish all homework~~~.

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2008-03-30T15:36:00.000-07:00

AH!!! another week is starting again...
which means tml i will be ending at 6pm.
which means i have to attend the tough pe session AGAIN.
hais. why do we need such a tough physical training for pe?
we are just only going for naffa nia. :((
later you will see i only have muscles and no fats hahaha.
but that is fat hope. :)
.............................

went back to sec sch on fri with crys, hy and joel,
to take cert and see teachers.
i went back twice :)
and we are able to enter the staff room. haha cool.
that's the difference when you are graduated.
everyone is like looking at you. hahaha.

stresssssssss..... :(

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2008-03-26T19:54:00.000-07:00

Its a shag day~~~

today i had pe. and the pe was a killer. some sort to me. :P

we have to run the first two rounds in 2 mins time for each.

and the next two rounds 2.15 mins per round.

i am excused from the last round.

but in total, we ran 5 rounds. but for me... 4 rounds. :D

it was totally shag. legs were tired.

imagine running a round for 2min its like.. sprinting. dashing.

like you gonna die. haha. okay i guess i am exgerrating it. :X

and.. i attended my first cca day today.

but interacting with the kids are so much... hmm. a different experience i should say.

teaching them the small little activities that my group had came up with.

folding a flying heart. o.o

some pictures to show... haha.

otherwise my blog is always gonna be words.

i thought this little water bottle was cute. =)

i got it for free in school today. haha.

finally, bought a new pencil case. haha. actually my buddy lists is not at all full.

it has no limits. almost everyday, we are making friends. :)

just find this interesting.

okay, the image has some prob. i dont know why there are so many white dots over the pencil case. the background is black.

what i have been doing almost everyday when i reached home. :(

and look at that, cold war. history... :(( i cant even understand it.

some i should say. :)

and there... my time table.

and as you can see.. monday is my latest day.

so now, i dont quite like monday. HAHA.

before i end, i want to show a small little video on some creativity of hands.

its really fantastic.

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2008-03-23T13:35:00.000-07:00

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2008-03-22T20:07:00.000-07:00

Not to decide is to decide

we, humans, always have to make decisions, be it for our life or whatsoever.
decisions are so important that once you made the wrong decisions,
there is hardly any chance to re-mend it. or maybe there is.
however, some people are so just that they do not like to make decisions.
decisions hold a risk in it. :P
sometimes, we, ourselves don't even know whether the decision we made,
is the right choice/decision for us...
for example, i made the decision to go JC instead of poly.
is this the right choice for me?
beats me. coz i really ain't sure about it too either.
will it be stressful for me?
all these thoughts were haunting me during the time when i need to make a decision.
but, after all, a decision has to be made.
and once we made a decision, be it wrong or correct, be it harmful or.....
we still have to commit to the decision we have made.
we have to work for our decision.
for, it is the decision we made.
everyone holds a decision...
some people may just make a decision coz they were forced to make,
and did not think about the consequences if this decision is made.

so not to decide is to decide.
precisely it is.
if you don't make a decision now,
sometime later, you would have to too. :)
as for me, i usually don't like to make decisions.
i am afraid that the decision i made would not be good,
and only bring me more troubles.
however, i know i have to. o.o

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2008-03-21T00:44:00.000-07:00

the past did not pass...
the past are memories that is still kept in your mind.
sometimes, the memories, the past...
only have two feelings for us.. which are happy or sad.
sad, coz you cant go back to the past
sad, coz you wish the past can be the present.
sad, coz the past is sad.
there are many reasons why we feel sad.
however, we also will feel happy when memories just came by...
happy, coz at least you are given the chance to walk, to keep the happy memories.
happy, coz.... there are just too many reasons to feel happy or sad.
there is always reason behind everything.. :)
sometimes.... sometimes...
there are too many sometimes..
arh.. that is just random~.
i am random-ner nia. ya? HAHA.
.....................................
sian~
hist is driving me crazy...
the question is so damn difficult.
PW is also ... kinda of.. hmm. haha.
have to start doing draft and etc.
hope to score well in it. :]

:(
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